16 March 2008
When i needed someone to accompany me, to chat with me, to listen to things that i wan to spill out, i often find it hard to do so.. I have lots of friends, but is it that hard to find one who can really care for me, listen to me?Weekend is bored... Seriously i start to find weekend like any other day, not like the usual fun and exciting and looking foward weekend. Yesterday saturday, morning took John's car and went to Dunearn, arranged with some of the Ex-Dunearn bball boys to play bball. Reached already open the PE office and that damn bloody office is still not unarmed! The siren goes off and DAMN! Called Mr Yap immediately and he said ok he had called the CISCO to inform that its a false alarm. Then duno whats wrong with me, nowadays my brain seems to be malfunctioning, after hang up i go and open the door again and that damn alarm triggered again! DAMN! Faster call Mr Yap again. In the end went out with John to eat breakfast first while waiting for Mr Yap to come back and unarmed.
After it was unarmed, we went to take the bballs and everyone started playing, long time never had the chance to play bball in this shiok atmosphere again, but i must say i am getting lazy and i am seriously not putting in 100% effort in playing it. Sorrie people that i am not playing great basketball, i need time to get back to my best standard, give me time.. Played till around 11.45AM, then POA tuition for Qian Mei from 12PM to 2PM, aft that both of us went over to WestMall, grab my lunch and we left. Went home bathe and rest awhile, 5PM at Jurong Entertainment for another POA tuition with Lilin and co. After that went home. Boring Saturday.
Today Sunday, bored like hell, and its really F***ing bored. Woke up play com all the way till noon. Noon go cut hair and wash hair. Play com all the way again till evening 7PM, then suppose to go Ah Mei with Harrison, but he got alot hw, so nv go, in the end i alone go out for dinner since i already told my parents i eating outside. Then called a few of my good friends but all unavailable, so frustrated, so in the end i cycled all the way to Bukit Batok, near the BB Nature park there to eat my dinner. And always when i am frustrated i will spend money, and i did... Ate Fish and Chips for $6.50, Ordered a bottled of Tiger Beer for $5.60 and i spend $12.10 just like that. No choice, only then i can spend my time, with the beer.
Now i finally understand why people drink beers when they are sad or lonely, its not because u can get drunk and go to sleep or what, its because it can accompany u, when drinking u can watch soccer, watch TV, it can also make u think, make u reflect, make u tok to urself more. Never mind, dun tok about it already, i shall go and sleep.
I think I like you, but i dare not tell you... How?
10:58 PM