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18 April 2008

Secondary 3 camp is finally over and here i am blogging again.. Not going to post what happen during the 3D 2N, but rather i would like to tell all the SLs what i initially wanted to tell them during their debrief in sch tdy. Was rather a emotional talk with them just now and i lost control of myself even before i have yet to finish what i wanted to say.

To all SLs of 07/08 batch, be it whether u go for sec 3 camp or not, this is what i want to tell all of you, do tell the SLs to read this:

I think all of us here should understand, the main purpose of having Student Leaders and Junior Alumni is the same; to serve and help the school with events and etc. We shared the same goal, same vision and same objective, but i would have to say your have forgotten about this. A leader gives chance to others so that he/she will improve on their mistake, but what i have seen is that almost everyone of you have sentenced the Junior Alumni to a death sentence, just because you thought that we have done something that your think is wrong? Maybe we did but because of that you want to condemn us? Now switch our roles, if the SLs have committed a mistake and we condemn your completely, how will you feel, how will you think and how will the outcome of the SLs be? Why haven your been able to think of such things?

For those who went for the Sec 3 camp, all the 36 group ICs, ask yourself how many wanted to win the Night race? If your wants to win it, i guess maybe your have not understand the objective of that game. You might be confused and asking why? I explained to my group 12 ICs, so they should understand. The whole idea of the night walk is to instill teamwork and allow them to bond together through communication, it also gave your the chance to identify out who are those outstanding leaders. But did anyone of your did that? Yes but maybe a few. I do now want my group 12 which i was attached to, to win the race. I stopped the group when they are not walking or running together as a team. I think of ways to identify out whether if any of them can stand out to be leader. Ask my group IC Yi Chuin, Haifzul and Khalisa what i did.

The whole idea here is not for me to show off to your telling that i am a good or perfect leader, in fact it is complete BULLSHIT if u ever heard of anyone saying that they are a perfect leader because you will never find one. There is too much things a leader need to do to be perfect and none of us will be able to, i am not because i am always learning from others, getting rid of my bad points to improve it and make it become my good points. These are what a leader should do and ask urself if you guys have done that? I dun know all these naturally, i learn from others. I learn all these from my seniors, my experience and now i am passing all these skills to your, to learn and pass on down.

I know today i told your quite a few things. I talk about the JA and seriously i want to make myself clear here. Why i am so upset is not because only a few people want to join the JA, i am NOT bothered by that at all because JA is a volunteery organization and i wouldn force you in. What i am upset is that everyone of us have a common goal and mission; to serve the school with events etc, but because of one person you gave up on that, you refuse to give us your support and ask urself, is it fair to us? I have told your SO SO SO many times, a leader always must put yourself in other people's shoes before he/she make a comment or decision, but have your done that? What if now it is ONE SL who had committed a mistake and because of that the JA condemn the whole SL, we leave you out completely and refused to get your involved in anything, refused to give your any support, how will u feel? Have your ever think of that? No you guys did not.

Ask yourself haven the SL been committing mistakes too? But have we gave up on your? Erica should understand what i meant here, go and ask her, how she felt when she saw her group performing during the campfire in sec 3 camp? Ask her that and she will tell you how overjoyed she was and how glad she had not gave up on her team. She had to work hard but after that she was satisfied. She cried before the camp fire, having a hard time getting her group together to come up with the performance, but she continued on and after her campfire, she thank me and said she enjoyed herself and thank god she did not gave up on them. It is the same thing applied here. I have not given up on you guys even though your show me that things are not well done and organized but when have i ever condemned your? Even up till today i have been here helping you, forking out my 4 days to help out with the Sec 3 camp, partly also because of you guys, because i wish to be there to help your as i knew that problems definitely will arise during the camp for you SLs.

I don't expect you people to be like me, missing classes, i dun need your to be on the same level as me. My passion for the leadership and Dunearn can never be expressed and explained to your, it is something that you cant see. I duno if u understand how i feel. You might be thinking i am crazy enough to put Dunearn and Leadership in front of my own things, own studies.. But to me, without leadership and Dunearn, i am a different person now, thats how i feel.

Now that all you SLs are stepping down, have your even considered about offering your service back to the school? The school nurtured you to be a leader, to instill leadership in you, something that will be with you forever and benefit you for your life, so are you going to just leave without doing anything? To me it will never be enough to repay the school, because it is just too much. All i wish is you guys, to just show your appreciation even if you do not want it to be involved in it anymore, but if this small little appreciation from your is so difficult, i guessed you have disappoint me and you are just a leader by name. Because till now, i have yet to see someone showing appreciation and cherishing this skills being taught to you.

8:07 PM