25 May 2008
As the time pass, i did not realise that all the while, i have been a fool, i realised i could never replace you with anyone. I tried, i tried hard... I thought that i could get into another relationship and slowly you will be forgotten, but it dun seem to be. It has been about 3 years plus, 1188 days since the day u left me. The hurting feeling can still be felt when i recall it, never once had that feeling go off.
After u left, i got in to 2 other relationships, but never once had i ever forget you, the feelings of the love for u always linger inside my heart, even though one of my relationship lasted around 2 years. It will not be fair on them, but i tried to put in 100% of my love, but a small portion of it refused. I thought that slowly it will gave off but everytime i see you, my heart smiled sweetly and i cant help but give up to it.
Now i had understand it would be impossible to replace you, i know you are the only one who can walk in to my heart, it is just a matter of whether you want or not. But i know now your wouldn want to. 1188 days had passed and i know your feelings for me are not like mine to you. Now i know what is the meaning of true love, to love someone with all you can, regardless of any other things, and it will never ever fade off..
I remember once, my mom threw away a box which contains all the letters you have wrote to me in the past. I was so mad and was fuming with rage and i quarreled with my mother. Even till now, i am still feeling the loss because whenever i thought of you, i will take out the letters to read again, but now the only thing i can count on is the image of you left inside me...
To the spEcial you. the Only thing i can do noW is to wait for you, to hope that fate wilL bring You to me agaiN anD all i hope Is that a chance will be given to me Again..
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