25 August 2008
Back to posting! Hmmm past few days nth much happen so just post on today ba. Well today early morning Mr Supandi called me for relief but i say i not free, because i promise dearest today i am gonna cook for her. LOL! So yup woke up around 11am, think of what to make and decided on FRENCH TOAST! Check on my house supplies and i am like OMG! No egg no bread nothing! So sian so i went down buy the stuffs first and come back prepare. Spend like half hour doing it, also duno nice or not. Put in a container and went to meet her.
Met up and went over to the Mac near her house to wait for the rest. Dearest ate the toast and she say taste not bad sia, so scare its not nice. Anyway hope u like it dearest! Skip my relief duty to do for u de wor! :)
The rest came and studied. Studied for my Law and i hope everything will goes well for tmr paper. Studied till 6pm plus then all left except Andrew. Suppose to go for POA tuition but cancelled. So wait for dearest finish her dinner at her aunt house first then head back with her to Mac to find Andrew and studied again. After that sent dearest home and i went home too after that.
Hmm anyway quite a lot of thoughts today. First is for my dearest. Haha. Felt that we are really moving on well wor, never have I ever had this feeling before... You said that you did nothing, but if your nothing can already make me felt this way, then what if you start to do everything? I just wanna thank god i had found you, because you filled up my final piece of puzzle in my life. I am gonna frame up the puzzle, lock it and throw the key away because you will never have a chance to be out of it anymore. ILY!
Next is more about my thinking... Heard somone just now saying more and more people is knowing about me and cy, hmmm but I really wonder why... I believe definitely there will be criticism on me, i can sense it... People have their own thinking and i definitely have no rights to demand how they think isn't it.. But i believe people is thinking why am i, a relief teacher, having a relationship with a student? Ya i mention before but HELLO AGAIN, i am 19, she is 16. Got any prob with that? Students wise i believe there is not much prob but is the teachers side, slowly when they get to know about it, they will definitely tok to me about it again, but whats wrong?
I believe i have gave in and sacrifise a lot for Dunearn and everyone who knows me can see that. I give my time, my 3 years since i have graduated back to Dunearn. Now am i suppose to sacrifise my relationship too? No way i guess... That is one thing even if you have point a gun at me and i still wouldn let go. Why people like to use weird thinkings to look at things? Cant i have my own life? I am willing to give up things that i have built up in Dunearn, people know me as a teacher, a JA, a senior, a collegue... I have a status in Dunearn but i am willing to give it up if i have to, because nothing is more impt than cy at the moment. If u are reading this and u have your own thinking of it, i am seriously ok.. Because right now things are very simple to me... I am a relief teacher in school to help students and earn a living for myself, but i am also a boyfriend of a student in Dunearn thats it.
You duno how difficult it is for me, to be outside and so afraid to see any Dunearn people when i am with her, but now i am asking myself why.. Should I be? Did i commit any wrongs? I certainly believe i din...
Met up and went over to the Mac near her house to wait for the rest. Dearest ate the toast and she say taste not bad sia, so scare its not nice. Anyway hope u like it dearest! Skip my relief duty to do for u de wor! :)
The rest came and studied. Studied for my Law and i hope everything will goes well for tmr paper. Studied till 6pm plus then all left except Andrew. Suppose to go for POA tuition but cancelled. So wait for dearest finish her dinner at her aunt house first then head back with her to Mac to find Andrew and studied again. After that sent dearest home and i went home too after that.
Hmm anyway quite a lot of thoughts today. First is for my dearest. Haha. Felt that we are really moving on well wor, never have I ever had this feeling before... You said that you did nothing, but if your nothing can already make me felt this way, then what if you start to do everything? I just wanna thank god i had found you, because you filled up my final piece of puzzle in my life. I am gonna frame up the puzzle, lock it and throw the key away because you will never have a chance to be out of it anymore. ILY!
Next is more about my thinking... Heard somone just now saying more and more people is knowing about me and cy, hmmm but I really wonder why... I believe definitely there will be criticism on me, i can sense it... People have their own thinking and i definitely have no rights to demand how they think isn't it.. But i believe people is thinking why am i, a relief teacher, having a relationship with a student? Ya i mention before but HELLO AGAIN, i am 19, she is 16. Got any prob with that? Students wise i believe there is not much prob but is the teachers side, slowly when they get to know about it, they will definitely tok to me about it again, but whats wrong?
I believe i have gave in and sacrifise a lot for Dunearn and everyone who knows me can see that. I give my time, my 3 years since i have graduated back to Dunearn. Now am i suppose to sacrifise my relationship too? No way i guess... That is one thing even if you have point a gun at me and i still wouldn let go. Why people like to use weird thinkings to look at things? Cant i have my own life? I am willing to give up things that i have built up in Dunearn, people know me as a teacher, a JA, a senior, a collegue... I have a status in Dunearn but i am willing to give it up if i have to, because nothing is more impt than cy at the moment. If u are reading this and u have your own thinking of it, i am seriously ok.. Because right now things are very simple to me... I am a relief teacher in school to help students and earn a living for myself, but i am also a boyfriend of a student in Dunearn thats it.
You duno how difficult it is for me, to be outside and so afraid to see any Dunearn people when i am with her, but now i am asking myself why.. Should I be? Did i commit any wrongs? I certainly believe i din...
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